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I’m so tired right now & I’m not going to have any chance of getting rest the rest of this week b/c we have to get ready to go home for my sister-in-law’s wedding… That’s an 11 hour drive to look forward to w/ 2 cats & the dog in the car. Not to mention I have no clothes right now that fit nor did I go find a dress.. Shit… *cries*

Things are really starting to pile up & it’s only going to get “worse” You’re not going to see much from me art-wise for a while b/c I simply don’t have time to even LOOK @ my sketchbook.

I should’ve called in sick today…

Oh well—wish me luck!

(I still can't change my emote--WTF!)

I knew this was going to happen since I was Beta Testing it but I kept switching to the old format.. *chuckles* looks like I can’t do that anymore. I think this new layout is interesting. There are things I like, things I don’t like, & things I have to get used to but it’s not terrible. But since I knew it was coming I’m not putting up much of a fight. My opinion—they own the site not me. If I don’t like it, I’ll leave, it’s that simple.
I think it’s interesting how many people are complaining about it yet they have been warning us for a while that they are going to revamp the whole DA look into this sleeker style & if you really wanted to try it out be a Beta Tester & give your opinion (it’s free to be a Beta Tester btw so why not?) *giggles* Oh well, I’m dropping the subject enough people are stirred up about it.

I found a GREAT book on landscapes last night @ the bookstore! *dances* I’m going to try to get out of my comfort zone & push for back grounds. *looks around in fear* Backgrounds are so hard for me b/c I find them boring to draw but I’m fascinated by what other people create… I know it’s so weird. But my characters can not continue to exist in this non-background world; I need to make backgrounds & I need to place them in places they can interact with instead of silly posing… (I’ve got so far to go) This book was for painting but when I was reading it—it really opened my eyes to the steps in creating a background. Plus I want to study more traditional techniques so I’m not strictly digital… Not saying I can master it but knowing how it all works gives me more respect for the medium and the artist who made it.

I have some personal challenges I’m presenting to myself & some other challenges that are coming @ me so it’s time to roll up the sleeves & go for it.


**I took off the CSS to see what this looked like!

Hey take out the “N” & it spells Fart! Lol! Ok, that was stupid but I’m hyper from drinking Cola this morning.

I sat @ my desk last night & drew snot for 2 hours & finally gave up trying to draw something I never have… I was trying to draw children… I LOVE pictures of children & I’ve never tried to draw them (chibis don’t count in my book) I think the reason I love pictures of kids is b/c they don’t hold back their expressions. They let every emotion play on their face & who cares if it gets stuck that way! *chuckles* I was flipping threw some pictures & saw some of the cutest, heart warming, curious, & charming pictures ever & most of it was b/c they were so expressive. They were all living in the moment & captured in a photo freezing that moment forever. When I tried to draw them though I ended up drawing old people instead of kids… *fumes* For some reason the faces looked too mature to me & I wanted really chubby cheeks but it would come across as chubby saggy cheeks… *rolls eyes* Oh well, it was a first attempt, I have to keep practicing… Practice, the overly true & annoying word ever an artist can hear… *sigh*

So I ended up drawing up some fan art of one of my fav Mangas Re: Play… I love this manga & had to draw Cree with her blue hair. I feel bad when I draw fan art sometimes, I feel like I’m cheating when I draw them b/c I’m referencing someone else’s work & trying to copy enough of it to be recognizable but putting my twist on it. I dunno. I have all these ideas for fan art but I’ve been putting them off b/c I feel strangely unoriginal when I draw them. But as I found out last night, after page & page of drawing crap I decided to try my hand @ fan art… It worked—I ended up making a solid picture, nothing spectacular but it was fun to give Cree long hair & put her in something a little softer—she’s usually so badass & wears the coolest mixed & matched clothes. I doubt her creator would ever put her in a tu tu… *looks around sheepishly* Don’t worry I kept her edgy element & I hope to color her soon… Actually I hope to color many things—usually when I get in an art rut it means I need to color my line arts. I guess it’s the universe’s way of time management… *shrugs*

With all the insanity my stomach is getting better little by little! Woo hoo! It still hurts every time I eat & all the wonderful nonsense but not as bad. I’m starting to see the pills doing their job & fix things. What a relief… Now I’ve got my hubs to worry about, we hope he only has a bad case of indigestion but his chest has been hurting… I’m worried about him but we’ve got him on aspirin from the doctor’s orders until we can get him in to the cardiologist. Things just seem to be piling up on us! Not to mention we have a house showing today… *bashes head on desk* We’ll have to take it all as it comes.

I like to keep discussions up so what kind of fan art do you draw or do you completely hate fan art? What do you do when in an art rut? Do you try new things or do something else entirely? What’s your favorite animal? (so random but again—I’m hyper) Me, personally, I love little kittens. ^w^

( My emotocon has been stuck for WEEKS--why it won't change I know not. )

Let’s talk all you guys!!! All my watchers (or visitors passing through) who read my journal let’s talk style & finding your own person style.

I’ll go: My personal style is still developing b/c I’m relatively new to drawing consistently & I’m trying to find my own style which seems to be influenced by many things such as America comics & manga & also I’m obsessed with watercolor for some reason… ?? I always want to try new things—like over the weekend I doodled on a pair of knock-off crocs from Walgreens for the first time—nothing extravagant, just a bunch of swirls & dots but it was fun! My drawing style is also shifting (I know, AGAIN) but I think it’s looking more detailed? I dunno.

So what is your personal style, influences, inspiration, & aspirations? Let’s chat!!!

Oh jeeze… I’m so messed up right now. It’s not a fun messed up either—lots of pain in the stomach & my head feels like it’s in a vacuum while I get the shakes… Nice… But I guess its working—it’s just a LOT of pills all @ once & I’m not a pill-popper so it’s really throwing me for a loop. Bleh *turns into giant slug* I can’t wait until I’m done with this crap! But right now it’s only day 2… *faints*

@Avatar: I’ve been getting a lot of questions about it so I’m going to confess it right here! I did not make it; I found it on glitter graphics.com which is this silly myspace site where you find stupid stuff to put into comments. Here: [link] I found this little picture 2 years ago & thought it was adorable. I remembered it the other day when I was looking on there—first time in a year—for a b-day thing for my Husband, dumb I know but thought I’d browse & I was bored @ work. I thought it was so heart warming I would make it an avatar, that being done I realized I couldn’t contact the host of it on the site… So I asked the Help desk if it was ok I had this as my avatar. I don’t like people who take credit for works that are not theirs, they piss me off to no end & they should be banned so I am confessing that I DID NOT MAKE IT. If I’m not allowed to have it I’ll gladly take it down—no questions asked. I hope I get to keep it though—it’s terribly cute… *sigh*

@Drawing: Well, I haven’t drawn in what feels like a week. (I know it's less but that doesn't help matters) Being in a bad mood I haven’t really wanted to draw. I have a list that keeps piling up of things I want/need to do & I just don’t want to right now. I find myself depressed & feeling worthless—maybe it’s the meds I don’t know but either way it’s not fun feeling like a turd. I sit in front of my desk & feel like I have all these ideas but I lack the want to get them onto paper—which is REALLY bad. This slump is acting strange… I don’t want to walk away from drawing for another 2 years but my dedication to drawing every day is waning… Am I burning out? Am I just being weird from feeling odd? I don’t know but this needs to end & it needed to end yesterday.