=KatSushimi247

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Journal Entry: Thu Jun 26, 2008, 6:51 AM

Mood: Miserable
Listening to: sales calls... Whoopie
Reading: Outlaw Demon Wails--wuz reading it
Watching: I can't change my emotocon! *glares*
Eating: nothing my tummy HURTS!
Drinking: Vitamine water

Yesterday I read a tut that really put things into perspective for me, I also read some other comments online that made me realize in all essence: I suck… It’s not b/c I’m bad @ doodling, I’m ok @ it but I regret to say that being self-taught for me is not the way to go. I stopped pushing myself lately & noticed I got madder & madder with my work… I’m not trying various things to improve myself; I’m pigeon holing myself before ever leaving the gate! *fumes*

It’s lack of schooling. I stink, nuff said—I can not call myself an artist b/c I’m not making “art” I’m doodling… I look @ the pros & think “I want to do that” but how the HELL am I going to get there? Do I have the talent to do so? Maybe not, but am I going to try? Damn skippy I am… I need school. I need the direction & the pressure of creating for a grade & then have the pleasure of sneaking away & drawing for myself. I also need the guidance b/c I want to improve but unless I learn all the fundamentals I’m only 2nd class bullshit. *fumes*

This nice angry rant is aimed @ myself. I am so mad that I slacked off… With this move our finances are going to get hit hard. But I’ve GOT to find a way to go back to school… That & I’m going through the 7 phases—I’m @ anger right now…

Another rant: When you’re in the manga aisle please don’t sit in the middle with your food & drink & read in the bookstore! This is not a library & OH look! The book store HAS a coffee shop where you can sit & read all you want & not buy a thing. MOVE! Last night I had to scramble over some kids who were doing that & I don’t mind it really but they were NOT polite @ all, they wouldn’t move & they were RUDE little shits. They leered @ me & said I wasn’t one of “them” WTF people? Why am I not a manga reader? B/C I don’t try to be cute & say kawii or whatever the hell it is? Or b/c I look old & you think I’m trying to pick out a book for someone else? Get over yourself—there are MANY people who read manga & just b/c I don’t act a fool for attention does not make me less of a fan of the genre.

*stomps off*

Oh btw I found out that they made a manga for The Dark Crystal! SOOOO got it! *love*

_{Thank you =Adrian-MalSeraph for this journal. Edit Entry}

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=NBC-117

Jun 26, 2008, 10:21:20 AM

WOW! I have the same problem looking at all this great art here and not being able to do it. The same thing with my web design, i am self taught at both and have not anyone sit down next to me and actually help or teach me. So I am right there with ya!

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~mallaard

Jun 26, 2008, 10:30:44 AM

I think the biggest thing I took away from college was learning how to push a project much further than I had ever done...taking a fun sketch idea, re-drawing it several times to clean it up and fix things, and then churning out a full-fledged finish that held nothing back. So basically, re-drawing a bunch is the secret I learned. And using references for any and everything that'll improve your initial sketch. I guess you don't qualify as a "real" manga reader because you're attractive and have self-respect and motivation, so I wouldn't feel too bad about not fitting into that crowd. But anyway, you guys have been through a lot lately so don't feel bad about not drawing enough or whatever, it happens. If you keep at it, you'll continue hitting new plateaus of awesomeness.

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=KatSushimi247

Jun 26, 2008, 11:41:56 AM

*chuckles* reads again *gigglesnortfallsoverlaughing* nice, thanks Deric. I wouldn't consider myself attractive but that's my personal battle--no more discussion on that matter. I don't feel motivated but who the hell knows! As for the manga people--I don't mind fans, I don't mind people reading in the store either but I don't like people being rude & inconsiderate... & I find that some are so obsessive that since I don't know the exact terminology I'm an outsider... I feel like I'm in high school b/c I'm being steriotyped by more high school kids! *laughs* oh well.

I will keep practicing. I am going home in July & my mom has this OLD heavy duty light table she used when she was a graphic designer in the oldin days--it still works great even though it's massive it packs a punch. I'm going to use it to trace over some of my pictures so I can redraw everything over & over. That is a GREAT suggestion... I do redraw things but I never trace my own word whereas I think I could really improve if I traced over my line art & changed things here & there.... & I know it seems like I've been through a lot but I feel like a dork blaming that.... Even though it's true. *rasberry* I just need to get over this funk.

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=KatSushimi247

Jun 26, 2008, 11:46:25 AM

I think it's not that we need someone to say "do this" or "do that" but I it's the need to learn tech I wouldn't normally use & other art forms. Becoming a well-rounded artist is something that helps in development instead of only drawing what I "like".... Subconsciously I've ignored my weak spots whereas if I had a class I would have a grade & would be paying for the education which would drive me to challange myself. @ least I think it would.
I do not like it when people come up to me & ask "Teach me" I can't, I have no knowledge other than drawing every day & liking this or that... So I hate going to others asking for help which is why I think I need school.

I know I will never be good @ ceramics... I blew up my final project & over 1/2 the class's final projects one class. I never tried it again...

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`Damaged927

Jun 26, 2008, 12:50:10 PM

Nooooo, you must sit in the isle and block everyone's way, its the rules! If you don't you are not a manga fan. Tsk Tsk, have you not learned anything?

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*philho

Jun 26, 2008, 1:14:39 PM

Well, I am well over 40 and I love manga!
I love Dark Crystal as well! I wonder if I will find this manga in France...

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=KatSushimi247

Jun 26, 2008, 1:19:39 PM

I have no clue... I loved the movie, it was awesome especially the little dog... *chuckles* It's so weird how people immediately judged but I guess we all do in some form.

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=KatSushimi247

Jun 26, 2008, 1:20:27 PM

*shame* I have not. I am banned from being dubbed "fan" I guess I'll have to stay "in the closet" about my love for manga.... BAHAHAHA!

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~mallaard

Jun 26, 2008, 1:24:05 PM

Ah, don't feel bad about having troubles. Hell, sometimes I'm too beat to draw if I eat too many potato chips at once, so moving and getting sick should definitely put you over the top. And I got nothing against otaku reading stuff in the store either, but the assholes who park themselves on the ground like toddlers, back themselves against shelves I wanna get at, and spread their legs all over the walkway are the ones that tick me off. Especially when they have pissy attitudes about it. And MAN OH MAN would I love to have a light table to play with!! You definitely lucked out there, especially since it's also huge. I must buy one someday.

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`Damaged927

Jun 26, 2008, 1:37:51 PM

I'm a closet manga fan as well

I'm more open about my anime love

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